Seriously, or not.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jFhgupR56
Anyway, the song makes me choke up in an non visible way inside. And it doesn't even speak directly to my teen experience! I never ran into this. But I still felt the knowledge that I didn't fit in, the odd man out the "weirdness." I appreciate that I didn't grow up in an exclusive society and that I somehow bridged that geekdom and mainstream, however I'm pretty sure that some of that is because I was repressing facets of my personality.
Even though, honestly taking a look at myself that's probably impossible. I'm pretty bad at repressions and I talk too much and I WAY talk too much about things that I'm interested in.
I have more thoughts, maybe I'll post on those in another three or four months or so.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jFhgupR56
Anyway, the song makes me choke up in an non visible way inside. And it doesn't even speak directly to my teen experience! I never ran into this. But I still felt the knowledge that I didn't fit in, the odd man out the "weirdness." I appreciate that I didn't grow up in an exclusive society and that I somehow bridged that geekdom and mainstream, however I'm pretty sure that some of that is because I was repressing facets of my personality.
Even though, honestly taking a look at myself that's probably impossible. I'm pretty bad at repressions and I talk too much and I WAY talk too much about things that I'm interested in.
I have more thoughts, maybe I'll post on those in another three or four months or so.
My morning yesterday began with a spider. A big ugly uninvited spider. I'd already been in the basement doing some work when I went upstairs to make coffee, and then was on my way back to the basement, when I saw him/her. It was sitting on the baseboard on the third step down. I stared at it for awhile, took some pictures*, then walked past. It was still too early to deal with that. Later, coffee drunk, it was time to go back upstairs, and I quickly realized there was a flaw with our house. The light in the basement stairwell is motion activated, from the top of the stairs. Which meant that it was dark. And there was a giant spider laying in wait for me.
I'm not scared of spiders the way people who are scared of spiders are. But I don't like them. And I find them unsettlingly disturbing and I certainly don't want to touch them. They are a fact of nature, yet the larger they get the more difficult it is to ignore that the beasts exist. Pretty much I don't want them to be hairy, or bulbous, or larger than a quarter. Definitely not all three. From my initial viewing of it it didn't really look like a wolf spider, wasn't hairy enough. I perused the internet trying to figure out what it was, but from one picture after another determined it was probably just a wolf spider. Which I won't say really made me more eager to tackle it since those creatures can jump so quickly.
Dark stairwell. The shadow of the beast was nowhere to be found. So I put on some shoes and found a flashlight then crept upwards. He was missing and in my head I imagined telling Jake I let the monster roam indefinitely. I found just a bit of his leg peeking out between the stair and the wall. I took a shower then came back to investigate. The spider had moved once more and now sat on a different stair. The carpeting of our stairs is such that it becomes perfect camoflauge for hiding this pattern. If my eyes slid off of it then the spider was gone until I refocused again. A bit eerie really. I told him (or her) to stay where she (he) was and fetched some supplies then removed the beast to the out of doors. Where I then proceeded to take a few more pictures of it before releasing to the wild. Where I watched him immediately scurry the twenty feet back to the basement door and thought, "hmm, Jake won't like that at all. Don't go outside!"
*I took a picture of it with Jake's phone and emailed it to him with the subject line: It's coming from inside the house!
He refused to respond to what I did all day.
I'm not scared of spiders the way people who are scared of spiders are. But I don't like them. And I find them unsettlingly disturbing and I certainly don't want to touch them. They are a fact of nature, yet the larger they get the more difficult it is to ignore that the beasts exist. Pretty much I don't want them to be hairy, or bulbous, or larger than a quarter. Definitely not all three. From my initial viewing of it it didn't really look like a wolf spider, wasn't hairy enough. I perused the internet trying to figure out what it was, but from one picture after another determined it was probably just a wolf spider. Which I won't say really made me more eager to tackle it since those creatures can jump so quickly.
Dark stairwell. The shadow of the beast was nowhere to be found. So I put on some shoes and found a flashlight then crept upwards. He was missing and in my head I imagined telling Jake I let the monster roam indefinitely. I found just a bit of his leg peeking out between the stair and the wall. I took a shower then came back to investigate. The spider had moved once more and now sat on a different stair. The carpeting of our stairs is such that it becomes perfect camoflauge for hiding this pattern. If my eyes slid off of it then the spider was gone until I refocused again. A bit eerie really. I told him (or her) to stay where she (he) was and fetched some supplies then removed the beast to the out of doors. Where I then proceeded to take a few more pictures of it before releasing to the wild. Where I watched him immediately scurry the twenty feet back to the basement door and thought, "hmm, Jake won't like that at all. Don't go outside!"
*I took a picture of it with Jake's phone and emailed it to him with the subject line: It's coming from inside the house!
He refused to respond to what I did all day.
I'm posting from my new toy! Yay toy!
I spoke to Jake this weekend about how I wanted to get a transformer to use as my new laptop. I've wanted one or a year now since my laptop died. Since I'm getting a little extra financial aid, I wasn't sure what to do with it. There are a ton of responsible things, but there re even more irresponsible things! This new toy somewhat straddles the two, since it might be useful to have for school. Once I get used to typing on it I might even use it for notetaking, but that still remains to be seen. Meanwhile it's working pretty well for sitting on the couch and typing while watching television. This might bode well for my blogging future! But no promises.
Anyway, Jake was completely on board, even though he was just contemplative when we spoke on the weekend. But Monday he chatted at me asking if this is what I wanted, however I didn't really have time to chat with him and about twenty minutes later when I scrolled back through the conversation I realized that he'd ordered it, yay! That's when we also found out that Amazon offers same day shipping in this area. He ordered too late for actual same day to occur, but it was here yesterday (Tuesday) and then the dock itself appeared today. Yay for toys!
I'm glad I didn't get one a year ago, since they've had not one but two upgrades since then. (Oh technology, don't you ever stop.) This is the Infinity, which is obviously for forever right? Side by side it's better than the new ipad in almost every category. And with the equivilant specs it's $100 cheaper. Ipad, don't ever stop your marketing machine, you're amazing and I love watching it from afar.
The typing though, the keyboard is so tiny. MY left hand is doing pretty well, it's the right hand that's having more difficulty with it all. Primarily with the shift and backspace, but it's getting the hang of it.
So far I love it. It's a beautiful machine and is exactly the hybrid of tablet and laptop that I was hoping for.
I spoke to Jake this weekend about how I wanted to get a transformer to use as my new laptop. I've wanted one or a year now since my laptop died. Since I'm getting a little extra financial aid, I wasn't sure what to do with it. There are a ton of responsible things, but there re even more irresponsible things! This new toy somewhat straddles the two, since it might be useful to have for school. Once I get used to typing on it I might even use it for notetaking, but that still remains to be seen. Meanwhile it's working pretty well for sitting on the couch and typing while watching television. This might bode well for my blogging future! But no promises.
Anyway, Jake was completely on board, even though he was just contemplative when we spoke on the weekend. But Monday he chatted at me asking if this is what I wanted, however I didn't really have time to chat with him and about twenty minutes later when I scrolled back through the conversation I realized that he'd ordered it, yay! That's when we also found out that Amazon offers same day shipping in this area. He ordered too late for actual same day to occur, but it was here yesterday (Tuesday) and then the dock itself appeared today. Yay for toys!
I'm glad I didn't get one a year ago, since they've had not one but two upgrades since then. (Oh technology, don't you ever stop.) This is the Infinity, which is obviously for forever right? Side by side it's better than the new ipad in almost every category. And with the equivilant specs it's $100 cheaper. Ipad, don't ever stop your marketing machine, you're amazing and I love watching it from afar.
The typing though, the keyboard is so tiny. MY left hand is doing pretty well, it's the right hand that's having more difficulty with it all. Primarily with the shift and backspace, but it's getting the hang of it.
So far I love it. It's a beautiful machine and is exactly the hybrid of tablet and laptop that I was hoping for.
It took them awhile to go there and back again so I certainly don't expect that to happen overnight. But it's a goal for walking, that'll be much more fun than simply tracking my steps. I'll have a purpose! And I plan on reading the books along with it. That'll also make the books more fun, I might enjoy them for the first time ever. Sure, it's possible that it'd make more sense to first travel to the Lonely Mountain, but there wasn't a nifty spreadsheet ready to go (and easy to find.)
I should totally go read the first two weeks of the fellowship tonight, you know, all that stuff before they actually start traveling.
Also I wonder if this means I can skip all the stuff that isn't Frodo and Samwise. Those are other journeys. Oh hey! that's an idea for after I get back again, walking in the footsteps of the others. Or I suppose I could be industrious enough to figure out the journeys that take place in other books. Any ideas? Oh this might be a good question to put up on Goodreads!
Food for thought.
Until tomorrow, when the adventure begins.
I should totally go read the first two weeks of the fellowship tonight, you know, all that stuff before they actually start traveling.
Also I wonder if this means I can skip all the stuff that isn't Frodo and Samwise. Those are other journeys. Oh hey! that's an idea for after I get back again, walking in the footsteps of the others. Or I suppose I could be industrious enough to figure out the journeys that take place in other books. Any ideas? Oh this might be a good question to put up on Goodreads!
Food for thought.
Until tomorrow, when the adventure begins.
I'm going camping in mid September. Not just camping, backcountry camping. With 
frandor and friends. What? You may ask inquiringly? What? You say in surprise, You know how to leave your house?
I've forgotten that I used to do this sort of thing all the time. I had lots of experience camping. I'm no expert, but I am probably more experienced than a lot of people, just not my avid enthusiast family members. The rest of everyone I know though? I have a lot of experience. It helps that I grew up in the woods and well, mountainy woods.
But I have no gear! And I'm wretchedly out of shape. Six weeks to condition! That means I should start.
Currently I'm torn on whether or not I should rent or buy. Buying is so pretty and fun! But so not reasonable, especially since this will be my first trip in ages and ages. I like to think that it's an investment into future fun, but that's not that likely.
So now I just need everyone who's going to start collaborating! It's only six weeks away, that's not too early to obsessively plan is it? Because I do love to obsessively plan, even if it's not my trip. ...But there's a lot to do! Especially exercise, I should totally get on that.
frandor and friends. What? You may ask inquiringly? What? You say in surprise, You know how to leave your house?I've forgotten that I used to do this sort of thing all the time. I had lots of experience camping. I'm no expert, but I am probably more experienced than a lot of people, just not my avid enthusiast family members. The rest of everyone I know though? I have a lot of experience. It helps that I grew up in the woods and well, mountainy woods.
But I have no gear! And I'm wretchedly out of shape. Six weeks to condition! That means I should start.
Currently I'm torn on whether or not I should rent or buy. Buying is so pretty and fun! But so not reasonable, especially since this will be my first trip in ages and ages. I like to think that it's an investment into future fun, but that's not that likely.
So now I just need everyone who's going to start collaborating! It's only six weeks away, that's not too early to obsessively plan is it? Because I do love to obsessively plan, even if it's not my trip. ...But there's a lot to do! Especially exercise, I should totally get on that.
I'm pretty behind in my reading
even though I haven't been keeping track, it's hard to remember when you're not keeping track!
I probably read about 37 books on the Kindle last year. I can't be sure, but I looked at my purchase history and I'm fairly sure those are the ones. I read some others aside from that, I just thought of one and I know there are more. Oh wait two more, so that's at minimum 40 books read last year, oh and another one! 41 books! And I haven't even budged or opened a browser to think about it. I went on a ridiculous reading binge last September where I read eleven books in less than two weeks. Brand new books even. Once I get going it's hard to stop.
But this year I'm not doing so hot in the reading department. I know I've read more than ten books, but that seems to be all my Amazon account knows about. With hope and luck and dreams I'll start writing them all up again. We'll see about that.
even though I haven't been keeping track, it's hard to remember when you're not keeping track!
I probably read about 37 books on the Kindle last year. I can't be sure, but I looked at my purchase history and I'm fairly sure those are the ones. I read some others aside from that, I just thought of one and I know there are more. Oh wait two more, so that's at minimum 40 books read last year, oh and another one! 41 books! And I haven't even budged or opened a browser to think about it. I went on a ridiculous reading binge last September where I read eleven books in less than two weeks. Brand new books even. Once I get going it's hard to stop.
But this year I'm not doing so hot in the reading department. I know I've read more than ten books, but that seems to be all my Amazon account knows about. With hope and luck and dreams I'll start writing them all up again. We'll see about that.
Is consolidating my online personas.
I've spent most of the last two hours working on putting my book reviews on goodreads. It's only been four years since I signed up for goodreads and I've finally decided it's a pretty good place for someone like me. You know, someone that loves reading and talking about her books.
Three years since I set up my own website and I'm almost ready to really try and launch my internet self. I'm still not crystallized on what it should be, aside a reflection of me, well public me. And I still haven't quite gotten to the point where I have a clue on what to do with G+ and twitter, but that's for another day.
Don't worry! When I do finally get it all consolidated I'll still be posting (or not) on LJ because all the stuff I don't want to be public has to be somewhere! Also of course I'll RSS feed from my website when I post on it, which I will. Because I do. Until then, there's a lot more tedium to go.
I've spent most of the last two hours working on putting my book reviews on goodreads. It's only been four years since I signed up for goodreads and I've finally decided it's a pretty good place for someone like me. You know, someone that loves reading and talking about her books.
Three years since I set up my own website and I'm almost ready to really try and launch my internet self. I'm still not crystallized on what it should be, aside a reflection of me, well public me. And I still haven't quite gotten to the point where I have a clue on what to do with G+ and twitter, but that's for another day.
Don't worry! When I do finally get it all consolidated I'll still be posting (or not) on LJ because all the stuff I don't want to be public has to be somewhere! Also of course I'll RSS feed from my website when I post on it, which I will. Because I do. Until then, there's a lot more tedium to go.
Now.... you're up. Now that I made a post on my website for the first time in three years. Too bad! I'm now obsessed with remembering how to be a web editor! You lose!
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Before I hit the magic post button, I do mean this post to be funny. It's possible I've had too much caffeine for that intention to be realized.
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Before I hit the magic post button, I do mean this post to be funny. It's possible I've had too much caffeine for that intention to be realized.
I truly don't "get" Oreos. With their 100th anniversary they've been advertising and each time it comes on it causes me to furrow my face into a perplexed look. Seriously? Oreos?
I don't understand how people enjoy them. There are a lot of things I say I don't like when what I mean is "eh, I can live without them they don't do for me what they do for people who "like" them." Primarily sugar and chocolate. Which makes standard cheap milk chocolate something I can easily do without. But I do like them. Especially when I'm hungry, I typically love sweets. And with coffee. Oh man, a nice piece of chocolate with coffee is heavenly. I've been tempted to eat a girl scout cookie, and I adore reeses cups. I don't think I've ever eaten a Chips A'hoy chocolate chip cookie and enjoyed it, yet I'll take one before an Oreo. There are times that I'm tempted and I taste these sweets others have around just to see if they're how I remember or maybe my taste buds have changed. But not Oreos. Just thinking about the excuse of a cookie makes a sneer cross my face and even as I try to control my face I feel it twitching up involuntarily.
There are several other foods that I say I don't like and while that was true once, I'm coming around. Several I even buy and cook myself. Mayonnaise. Shrimp. Tofu. There's a time and a place for all of them and I don't trust others.
Even though I'm definitely warming to tofu. I've even ordered it on a few occasions. I still have a fairly low opinion of it, but it's no lower than my opinion of cheap meat. I'd still rather have broccoli than tofu or a standard grocery store boneless chicken breast. And I feel sure that I can master it, at that point I can then put it aside.
Yesterday's food experiment half failed and was half awesome. I tried to make some wraps out of a zucchini paste, but I spread it too thin in the dehydrator so it didn't peel up properly. The stuffing for the wraps that didn't get wrapped was fantastic. We've opted to call it a cabbage salad since Jake doesn't want me to associate it with cole slaw. He grew up with the standard mayonnaise based slaws so he doesn't separate the association. It was delicious. Honestly I should have taken a picture, but I want to make it again anyway. I learned about tamarind at least! I feel confident that I can make a paste now, even if I failed a bit yesterday. Redoing the slaw is going to be my fallback meal this week since inevitably I will run into a night that I get home late or my experiment fails.
Right this moment I have to go into work and I'm trying to decide if I'm going to be brave and ride my bike or just drive in. I have to get everything set up for the orientation class in the morning and I sure as heck don't want to go to work at 8am so now makes the most sense does it not? Stupid laziness. I totally wasted yesterday.
Okay, enough babbling.
I don't understand how people enjoy them. There are a lot of things I say I don't like when what I mean is "eh, I can live without them they don't do for me what they do for people who "like" them." Primarily sugar and chocolate. Which makes standard cheap milk chocolate something I can easily do without. But I do like them. Especially when I'm hungry, I typically love sweets. And with coffee. Oh man, a nice piece of chocolate with coffee is heavenly. I've been tempted to eat a girl scout cookie, and I adore reeses cups. I don't think I've ever eaten a Chips A'hoy chocolate chip cookie and enjoyed it, yet I'll take one before an Oreo. There are times that I'm tempted and I taste these sweets others have around just to see if they're how I remember or maybe my taste buds have changed. But not Oreos. Just thinking about the excuse of a cookie makes a sneer cross my face and even as I try to control my face I feel it twitching up involuntarily.
There are several other foods that I say I don't like and while that was true once, I'm coming around. Several I even buy and cook myself. Mayonnaise. Shrimp. Tofu. There's a time and a place for all of them and I don't trust others.
Even though I'm definitely warming to tofu. I've even ordered it on a few occasions. I still have a fairly low opinion of it, but it's no lower than my opinion of cheap meat. I'd still rather have broccoli than tofu or a standard grocery store boneless chicken breast. And I feel sure that I can master it, at that point I can then put it aside.
Yesterday's food experiment half failed and was half awesome. I tried to make some wraps out of a zucchini paste, but I spread it too thin in the dehydrator so it didn't peel up properly. The stuffing for the wraps that didn't get wrapped was fantastic. We've opted to call it a cabbage salad since Jake doesn't want me to associate it with cole slaw. He grew up with the standard mayonnaise based slaws so he doesn't separate the association. It was delicious. Honestly I should have taken a picture, but I want to make it again anyway. I learned about tamarind at least! I feel confident that I can make a paste now, even if I failed a bit yesterday. Redoing the slaw is going to be my fallback meal this week since inevitably I will run into a night that I get home late or my experiment fails.
Right this moment I have to go into work and I'm trying to decide if I'm going to be brave and ride my bike or just drive in. I have to get everything set up for the orientation class in the morning and I sure as heck don't want to go to work at 8am so now makes the most sense does it not? Stupid laziness. I totally wasted yesterday.
Okay, enough babbling.
I'm back updating the food blog some today. I've been doing a good job cooking this week and it's excited me enough that I've finally uploaded some pictures and went to do some posts on the poor ignored food blog. I cook something worth talking about at least once a week! I show people pictures of my food, or my leftovers at work and am told all the time that I should open a restaurant. These food shows I watch on the other hand just show me all the knowledge that I don't have.
The dehydrator is getting it's workout this week. I've made kale, jicama, almond "meatballs", onion bread, and now a zucchini wrap.
I'm seriously making myself hungry just thinking about all this food.
Cooking raw is interesting. I'm not trying to have a strict raw or even vegetarian diet, because that way lies madness, not only for time but for what I actually want. But so far Jake's liked all the recipes that we've made, which is exciting. I was worried he'd find them too weird and stuff. But it really helps that I've been primarily using recipes from The Raw Chef. Russell James is amazing. I really should watch his videos, but I don't have the attention span to watch videos. I have an issue against most videos that might not be rational.
But here it is 5pm and I still haven't done the thousand of things I'd like to accomplish today, but I feel good at having food prepping in the dehydrator and finally updating the b log. IT's a start to being who I want to be. Even if I haven't said everything here yet I should.
And in case you forgot: http://ajfoodandstuff.blogspot.com/
The dehydrator is getting it's workout this week. I've made kale, jicama, almond "meatballs", onion bread, and now a zucchini wrap.
I'm seriously making myself hungry just thinking about all this food.
Cooking raw is interesting. I'm not trying to have a strict raw or even vegetarian diet, because that way lies madness, not only for time but for what I actually want. But so far Jake's liked all the recipes that we've made, which is exciting. I was worried he'd find them too weird and stuff. But it really helps that I've been primarily using recipes from The Raw Chef. Russell James is amazing. I really should watch his videos, but I don't have the attention span to watch videos. I have an issue against most videos that might not be rational.
But here it is 5pm and I still haven't done the thousand of things I'd like to accomplish today, but I feel good at having food prepping in the dehydrator and finally updating the b log. IT's a start to being who I want to be. Even if I haven't said everything here yet I should.
And in case you forgot: http://ajfoodandstuff.blogspot.com/
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